i know

do you know, friend? i can see through your forced cheerfulness. i know that as how you have told me about the shortcomings of others, how you criticised them and judged them, i know you would have done the same thing to me as well. yes actually, i guess the one i am fooling is myself, for thinking that you'd change, for thinking that you would be sincere. there will be a time when you call for help and i will answer, not because i am once again fooled by you, but because even though you mayn't think much of me, i will still treat you as how i would want myself to be treated. 

that is one of the principles i am reminding myself to keep.